deep deep blue

its my first time to the sea since 3 years, Its so funny that seashore is 1 hour away from me while I cant reach it, the Israeli occupation military orders are preventing us as Palestinians from going out of our cities, towns, and refugee camps. A whole people are detained inside separate cantons since 6 years, even more.
As I said, I've seen the sea; it's great to look at a horizon that isn't polluted by the fascist occupational orders, to touch the sea that free people all around the world were touching, to feel you're a part of this planet finally. As a Palestinian, a guy who lives under the last occupation case in the 21st century, it was like a miracle.
There was it; the whole of it, a window that enables you taking a peek @ her majesty "freedom"
I'm ashamed of my feelings, I wasn't happy there, I couldn't do anything but to remember grief and sorrow, my personal grief, my long lasting sorrow, remembered Issa, my comrade who was killed by an Israeli sniper in April 2001, he used to say "I'm thirsty to a sea"
For his soul, for his wishes, for the sake of my conscious, I couldn't take it anymore, couldn't enjoy it. So I got back to my prison, from the same dangerous way I came from, behind the backs of soldiers of the "Democratic tower of the middle east": Israel